I spotted this at the beginning of May, and planned to join in straight away but now seems like the right time to share the happiness “Inside My Head”.
- Thank & tag the person that has tagged you
- Attach the tag photo
- Answers the ‘This or THAT questions
- Tag a 10-20 friends.
Here are the questions:
How do I feel at the moment?
I am feeling bright and excited.
What do I need?.
An extra 5 hours in a day
What would make me happy right now?
I would like to be able to understand my son. He lives in his own magic world and sometimes I find things are lost in translation.
What is going right in my life?
A lot of things are going right at the moment. I’m getting the support I need for my son, not just from the school but healthcare professionals as well. The steps I am taking steps finding the right home for my little family seem to be in the right direction. I discovered today that I have passed my module and so I am one year closer to achieving my study aspirations.
What am I most grateful for? List 10 things.
- My children.
- My home.
- An ability to learn.
- My wonderful friends.
- Sir and his ongoing tasks.
- My confidence.
- My desire to keep going…
- The weather. Whatever it is I love it.
- The sea.
When did I experience joy this week?
When I collected my boys after their weekend away. Those hugs are always full of joy.
List a small victory/success?
I took my boys to a bouldering gym today. I had originally thought I would sit and watch them doing their thing in the kids club because I don’t have the strength to climb. Well, I decided that I would give it a go. The old me who had no confidence would have stopped there but…. Not the new me. And I surprised myself, hugely!
What is bothering me & why?
I am very lucky to have a wonderful group of close friends, and a fantastic set of friends who are less close but no less important. It is the people who sit on the edges and pretend to be friendly but are in fact unpleasant to be around. That is what bothers me. And they bother me because I can’t do anything about them. I don’t bitch or moan or gossip, but they do. I have always been a fan of the saying Keep your side of the street clean. It has got me through a lot of moments where I wanted to air my dirty laundry. But, grrrrrr…..it is so frustrating!
What are my priorities at the moment?
My number one priority is to keep my children safe and well. This includes finding a home which is right rather than a home which is just almost there. Continuing with my study and ongoing tasks rank right up there as well.
What do I love about my self?
I love the way that I am soft edges and yet firm in my approach. I am honest, caring and loving, but I don’t suffer fools gladly. Tenacity and a competitive spirit, which means I will keep going until I figure it out (whatever it is) to the best of my ability. I love that I am always learning, and this is such an important skill for me in all areas of my life. Also my eyes. I love my eyes.
Who means the world to me & why?
My children, because there is no-one else who would be able to drive me to distraction and yet give me a squidgy cuddle and the whole troubling situation is set to rights! I love them unconditionally.
I have 7 people in my most close group. They are who I call my 3am friends. Have you ever had one of those nights where the darkness is all-consuming? Since having these friends I have never needed to make that call, but I know they are there, as I am for them. This isn’t the only reason I love each and every one of them, but they know I adore them.
Sir… Sir has given me so much. For such a long time he was the candle that illuminated my world, even when he wasn’t in contact. Now he has given me the candle and I can light my own world while he is unable to do that for me. I look forward to the time I can hand it back to him. Not because I am unable to hold it for myself, but because I love the way that I can brighten his world better with both hands free.
If I could share one message with the world, what would it be?
Honesty is the best policy.
What advice would I give to my younger self?
Trust your intuition.
What lesson did I learn this week?.
If you don’t try you won’t know if you can. If you do try you may surprise yourself!
If I had all the time in the world, what would I do first?
Go for a swim in the sea.
Whats draining my energy?
Running over 20 miles a week and not fuelling up properly.
What does my ideal morning look like?
Ahhh, the boys would get ready to go when they are asked. And I would not have to stand on my doorstep waiting for them rather than losing my temper.
What does my ideal day look like?
Fresh air, open spaces and smiling children (just mine, my ideal day does not include looking after other people’s children!) It is likely there would be a picnic too, one that the boys helped me to make. Then two tired boys in bed on time so I can relax with some smut.
What makes me come alive?
Swimming in the cold sea, or spending time in wide open spaces.
What/who inspires me the most?
My children, Sir and the woman I used-to-be all inspire me to be the best I can be.
Where does my pain originate?
What are my strengths?
I am tenacious, strong-willed and loyal.
What is something I’ve always wanted but too scared to get?
The fear of not being good enough has stopped me from training for and entering a marathon and triathlon. I have a plan for the marathon, and this is tied up with a task. And I have plans afoot for tri training once I am safely through the marathon.
What is something I would love to learn?
Where would I want to live my ideal life?
I haven’t seen enough of the world to answer this one, but I know that I have never felt I have roots anywhere. Germany, Belgium, Holland and Denmark are all places that intrigue me, but that is just where I am wondering about recently.
Where would I like to travel in the next 5 years?
As above, I feel drawn to Germany, Holland, Belgium and Denmark. Really though, anywhere that I can find a cheap flight and accommodation which fits in with my children.
What can I do to take better care of myself?
I can get more sleep. I would also like to eat better.
What hobbies would I like to try?
Triathlon, boxing, wing walking (is that really a hobby?)
When have I done something that I thought I couldn’t do?
Most recently I completed two climbs at the bouldering gym, but before I went along I was convinced that I wouldn’t be able to complete half of the easiest one. Over the last 4 years my world has been made up of achieving things I didn’t believe I could do. It is amazing what you can achieve when you have the right mindset, or the right person to teach you how to sail through the fog.
At the end of my life, what do I want my legacy to be?
I want people to see me as someone who had a lot of love to give out. That I was a tenacious achiever who began life as a starter and flourished as a completer. Also that I was a kind person who raised wonderful children and inspired them to be the best they can be.