I love this image. In many ways it illustrates my desire to find the hidden beauty I’ve been hunting for this month. I’m bound tightly, and smiling. I know it’s a smile because of the shape of my cheeks. I’m currently sporting an injured shoulder, one that’s deteriorating and awaiting diagnostic imaging. So we are having to get creative. But it’s fun to learn new ties, different rope placement, and what my body can and definitely won’t do. I have boundaries, more than normal, but I’m keen to test myself, my body, my mind.
This moment, captured by 1001011, where I’m tightly bound, grinning, living my best life. My hidden beauty is on display to me here. The grin on my face, the lack of tension in my shoulder, the calm joy that radiates from me. Trust in my friends, peace with my kinks and a love of just turning up as I am.
As my February Photo Fest offering draws to a close, I am starting to see an emerging pattern. That, though I thought I’d misplaced the things that make me feel attractive, they’re still there. But while I don’t know if these facets of my persona are visible to you, at least I have tracked them down.
Tomorrow it will be time to recap my journey through the month, so I can come back and take a peek at my positive points when I need to bolster myself. But today I’m all about relaxing into one of my happy places.
This happy place is somewhere that feels like it crosses the boundary between vanilla and kink. I know, being tied like this could hardly be called vanilla. But, in this picture, I feel innocent and playful, and sharing a much loved hobby with a beautiful friend. Which all feels inherently vanilla.
I know that I love to keep my kinky beauty hidden behind the vanilla mask when talking to vanilla friends. But not because I’m ashamed, it’s more to protect them from things they’re not ready (or willing) to understand. They aren’t kinky, so don’t/can’t consent to stories of bukkake, gang bangs and beatings. And I’m all about consent.
I will only ever be authentically me though. And more and more, I ride the crest between my two worlds. Enjoying the life that I’ve created and embracing all aspects of it, blending the different aspects of my lifestyle rather than separating them entirely. Finding beauty and keeping things hidden, private, just for me. Or sharing with those I know will appreciate that part of me. (For example, I’m not going to go on-and-on-and-on-and-on about my favourite recipes if I know that you are not interested in food and nutrition.)
Yup, my preference is for keeping some things hidden away. It’s more interesting than sharing all to everyone. Much like sexy underwear images over unsolicited dick pics. And by choosing what I share, where and with whom, I get to keep a modicum of control over it. And I get to keep some things only for those closest to my heart. People I know will hold my most private of moments sacred. They know who they are. <3
Thank you for joining me for February PhotoFest 2023. This is my fourth time joining the month long celebration of erotic and sensual photography. If you’re enjoying it please do go and check out the previous years: 2019 was an incomplete month. I skipped 2020 due to not blogging at the time but 2021 was a joy to plan and complete, in spite of lockdowns. 2022 was a little more relaxed behind the scenes, but jam packed with pictures and memories I love.
From the story of how the barefoot sub became the woman she is today, to toy reviews, with a hefty dose of contemplation, a sprinkling of erotica and a LOT of nudity in between, you can be sure to find something to tickle your fancy at A Leap Of Faith.