What an adventure!
It is the end of the month and my last post for Every Damn Day in June 2020. This is the first time I have completed a month challenge within the month. A-Z April 2019 took me well into May and looking back I didn’t quite achieve the complete alphabet. It has been quite a learning experience.
I have to be honest, it’s not been easy!
The decision to participate came from the desire to get back on track with my blog, to enforce the habit of daily writing, and to make good use of lockdown. Of course, in my enthusiasm I completely forgot that the restrictions have made life more intense for me rather than less.
I’ve had my boys home for the most part of it, and they are wonderful but time consuming. My time on duty is from 7am to 10.30pm and it took me until the third week of June to create a way to write during the day. I think that between the demands of my headstrong six year old and the challenges faced by my autistic pre-teen finding any time for myself during the day is quite a triumph, and one I would have been unlikely to find without participating in this meme.
Of course, when they went to their dads for the weekends I had grand plans to get ahead for the coming fortnight but… I am only human and need time to just breathe. So fresh air, socially distanced socialising and down time have all been vital for my sanity. To ensure that I can be as good a mum as possible when they get home again.
There have been times when I thought I wouldn’t be able to complete the challenge, but I had made the commitment before the start of the month and was keen to see it through. I have had times in life where I have started projects and not finished. This is something that I have managed to change over the last few years. With the confidence instilled in me through completing tasks set by Sir I had begun to change that internal dialogue. But I hadn’t really set myself any big tasks that would thoroughly challenge me. So it felt extra important to get through.
Those two words “get through” sum up how I feel about the month now. I have had some amazing tasks set over the course of the month, but I have also struggled to maintain my rational thoughts at times. I have said it before, I’m sure he knows me better than I know myself, and I am very grateful to Sir for noticing that I was up against it and setting tasks that meant I could succeed in all of my important projects: Pleasing Him, Being Mum and Every Damn Day in June.
I have learnt a lot over the course of the month.
- Writing under pressure can bring some interesting results.
- I can write with the noise of two boys squawking in the background
- Completing tasks that I set for myself is something I can do.
- I can only do so much, and I am learning to recognise when I am hitting that point.
- Children like to see their grown up working. It seems to have helped their focus as well as their friendship.
- What I thought was 100% barely scratches the surface.
June has been a massive adventure.
I have started to believe in my ability as a writer, and am taking more confident steps to a better future in this area. It has been wonderful to interact with so many new (to me) and familiar bloggers. I don’t know if I will join in for next years challenge, unless I am able to get creative beforehand and schedule lots of posts, but I am so grateful to Hy for hosting the meme, and giving me the motivation to stretch and challenge myself.
For now I am going to have a short rest, and gather myself for the next phase.
See you in a couple of days…