It has been so long since I have been able to write anything. Words disappeared.
But I have been feeling them start to bubble up, and when I saw the prompt for this weeks Food 4 Thought I realised it is the perfect place to start. The arrival of the wild garlic, Celendines and the first sleepy bumble bees show me that springtime is well and truly here, I’m reminded of mischief in the woods. It feels like time to nudge my blog from it’s hibernation. It also has a certain synchronicity given that my last post was also for the same meme. Here is the prompt:
Hopes and DreamsTimes are tough right now but I hope we are all still remembering to hold onto and nurture our Hopes and Dreams. Perhaps your hopes and dreams for the future have changed recently or maybe the inability to act on them during this current climate has intensified your need to realise them once normality resumes.
The idea of hopes and dreams is an interesting one.
Over the last five or six years I have come to see that a goal is a dream with a plan. Last year I achieved some amazing goals, some landmark achievements in my vanilla world. On completion of these I took stock, looked for the next landmark and made plans. The plans have been a brilliant way to focus on the here and now, when I see the bigger picture it becomes easier to focus on the smaller details somehow. With these restrictions in place my running landscape has been squished. But no matter, I will continue to do what I can and look forward to resuming my plans when it is appropriate to do so. It looks like this will mean adding a year on to my timescale. It’s ok, my first 100 miler will just have to wait until 2023! (I have mentioned I’m a masochist, haven’t I?)
I used to dream of having friends.
Over the last few years I have reconnected with pre-P friends, and also made a lot of new friends. I’ve been welcomed into the kink community with open arms and have found a social circle in the trail running world who seem to share my values of fun and the love of life. While mainly vanilla in my interactions I have a knack for making people open up. Like Runner J and other kinky waifs and strays you will encounter as we go. My goal for the future with these friendships is to give back to them as much love, hope and joy as they bring to my world.
And that brings me back to my blog…
If I am going to introduce you to the colourful people that brighten my world I will need to write here regularly. I have missed the blogging community and writing, but been a bit lost for words at times. I certainly feel inspired to continue now. And I think I must be a slow processor as I have been mulling over Eroticon 2019 recently, and believe that I am ready to start implementing the things I have learnt there. If I can take the inspriation and learning, then hopefully I will be able to contribute something beautiful.
But my most important goal is to be the best I can be…
For those important people in my world. We all have tasks, and I am grateful for this pause, these restrictions. It has given me a chance to reflect on life in general, but also as a submissive, and even more importantly a mum. Life is all about the lessons we can learn along the way, and if I can find a silver lining (there always is one!) in the current situation where hopes, dreams and goals are in limbo, then I shall enjoy the opportunity to nurture relationships remotely with all of the lovely folk who fill my world with sunshine. I am also excited to have so much time to learn with my children, to have playtime when they/we are not tired and cranky from a busy, busy day and to really find the time to get to know the lovely boys they are growing into.